(July 18, 2014)
Is
there anything more painful to deal with than recognizing that others are
suffering for your sins? David, seeing
the death and destruction around him because of his mistake, hints at the
anguish and calls upon the Lord to afflict him rather than his people. Particularly as a parent, this is difficult
for me to deal with. I see that I have
made mistakes, and as a result of the mistakes that I have made my children are
put into positions where they are being hurt. I never would want my children to be hurt, and
it breaks my heart that it is a situation that I cannot simply step into and
fix on their behalf.
The
only thing that alleviates that pain even slightly is to constantly keep before
my mind the truth – that they are His children, too. They were His children before they were mine,
and He loves them with a love that exceeds mine. If I, with my imperfect love, would step in
and make everything better if it were in my power, then I can trust that He
(with His infinite love) would likewise step in. But with Him, He is held back not because of
limitations in His scope of power but rather in an increased understanding of
what His children (me and my children) need in order to achieve our greatest
potential.
And so
I am left to strive to take care of my children. I am left in anguish, and I am left like David
to call on the pain and suffering to be put upon me rather than upon them. And then I am left to wait upon the Lord and
trust that He will take care of us all according to His perfect love and Divine
will.
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