(June 28, 2014)
I feel for Coriantumr at this particular time in my life. Coriantumr was a man who figured out, too late as it turned out, what he should have known all along. At the point he realized his mistakes, he began doing what was in his power to fix his previous behavior, but the problems had gone on too long and the damage was too severe to rectify. To his credit, he tried to make amends – but the temporal consequences of his behavior were permanent.
Likewise I am in a similar position. Like Coriantumr, I discovered some time ago my wickedness and took steps to root that out of my life. And I was, thanks to the Atonement and the Lord’s blessing, successful in that attempt. But, like Coriantumr, I am finding that the damage may have already been too severe to be overcome despite my repentance and forgiveness – though I have felt the Atonement wash away the spiritual effects of my prior sins the temporal effects may be beyond repair. And that is something that fills my heart with a great deal of despair.