(May 21, 2015)
The Lord’s discussion of whoever has been forgiven much loves much always took on a wrong meaning to me before my time of struggling and pain. Before, I thought that it was an indication that a person who had sin and was forgiven was better off than a person who was righteous. That always seemed quite odd to me.
But, of course, that wasn’t the case. I went through the process of coming face-to-face with my sinful nature and realizing just how very much I had to be forgiven of. Then, after receiving forgiveness from the Lord, my heart overflowed with love for Him. Now I am in the (continuing) process of bringing my life more and more in compliance with His will. Much was forgiven me, and as such I cannot express the depth of my love for Him.
But the key was my understanding of my sinful nature, not the quantity of sins that I had committed. Had I recognized my sinful nature earlier – when habits weren’t as ingrained and mistakes hadn’t caused so much damage – I would have still loved much because I would have realized how utterly helpless I was without the Lord. But, having been forgiven, I would be so much closer to having the capacity to give my will to the Lord completely and be sanctified of Him.